Memoir Excerpt – Chapter 2 continued

Week 2 / August 27 – September 1  continued   (Italicized = original journal from day one) What did I do to cause it?  What should I have done differently?  What do I do now?  Can I trust again?  Can I be healthy again?    This unwanted, non-focusing mantra played for a long time in my head.  […] Read more »

Memoir Excerpt – Chapter 2 continued

Week 2 / August 27 – September 1  continued   (Italicized = original journal from day one) Information overload.  Doctors have good words but they are sandwiched between blackness.  How is there good in mutilation?  Two negatives make a positive.  Remove cancer + remover breast = healthy.  Maybe this is a mantra to accept. Weighing […] Read more »

Memoir Excerpt – Chapter 2

Week 2 / August 27 – September 1    (Italicized = original journal from day one) Alarm Rings 6:01    “Stay asleep, it’s not real.” 6:02    Cancer 6:03    Cancer 6:04    Cancer “Rise, shower, dress.   Be normal, do normal, act normal. . . Maybe it won’t be true.” 6:34    Cancer 6:35    Cancer 6:36    Cancer “Eat, drink […] Read more »

Memoir Excerpt – Day 2

Day 2 – August 21, 2007    (Italicized = original journal from day one)                     Aloneness, no one, empty, without, comfortless, alone, alone, alone. . .             Misery loves company but there is no company after diagnosis.  It doesn’t matter all those before me; it doesn’t matter all those after me.  I am solitary and […] Read more »