What is it about families? I’m not talking about my children because I don’t have any. I’m talking about siblings and their children.
We’re on our way to meet a niece for breakfast. I’m very excited to see her but with my enthusiasm also comes discomfort. We no longer share a relationship with her sister or her mom. We of course blame them and they of course blame us. Sadly we don’t know what happened. Over time our relationships changed. I know we have reasons on both sides to harbor pain and anger. Unfortunately the cost has been a loss of family.
At the beginning, I thought we were all alone in this but amazingly as I talk with others, they often have similar situations with siblings. It’s just weird. I really don’t know why it happens. I do know I’m tired though. I even received some counseling for it.
I felt guilty, I felt hurt, I felt deceived, I felt anger, I felt sorrow. I hoped for a way to fix it, found none and decided I had to move on without them. My only recourse is to send love in their direction. I don’t want to harbor ill will to those I love. I also don’t want to feel all the negative emotions that come from the loss. So I am going to go meet my niece that maintains contact with us and enjoy loving her. Maybe that means we’re almost ready to have tea!
